Vs. Heroism

I always hold myself to much higher standards than I let on to anyone. Even as I slay the undead, and try to do what's right, lately, it's all too much. It's all getting too hard, and I want to just run away, and stop being the good guy, stop saving everyone, stop apologizing every time someone doesn't like what I say. It's all getting really hard and I'm not sure how much longer I can do this. It's the little thank yous that seem to keep me going.

Vs. Camera Lens

Which pic should I use for my profile on here?
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Batman Begins is out on DVD Oct 18th!
It's already on my amazon list.

Vs. Matrimony

Alright, so my brother's wedding was this last weekend. It was very odd, it was quite a party, and I had many fathers foisting their daughters upon me, and a couple proposals- those helped my ego, but they aren't the odd part. My folks were very nervous and drank with the rest of my family... This left me the only one sober enough to take care of everyone and take charge of the wedding. I wasn't very good at it, cause I'm no wedding planner, but it seemed to all work out, everyone had a blast, and I felt much better about who I am at that paticular point. Most of my friends don't see it, but I'm actually rather harsh on myself, and very very shy. I wasn't so bad this weekend.
I'm on vacation now, so I'll be fixing my laptop, and not much else. I put up an away message on yahoo saying I was lonely, and that was a mistake, because I started getting people wanting to see me, and it turns out I didn't actually want that. haha. I need something else to fill my time besides movies, friends, and my xbox. Perhaps I'll go to that trainer in NoHo for Batman training! Or, if I can find a way to make it a regular thing with Phil, maybe I'll get into paintball or something. Justina was telling me about a fencing place here in town, but I'd really have to get back into shape and have some money before I could do that again (I break a lot of sabers) Anyway, I'm on vacation if anyone wants to call and say hi. I'm going to a The Used concert this weekend, I'll probably do something for my birthday, and I'm going back to the dentist for my permanent crowns next Tuesday. I guess those will keep me busy.
Oh, crap- I messed up the format on here- why won't the columns peacefully coexist? I need to start adding pics, too. There's something else to keep me busy. haha. Well, that and Jenn got an xbox, maybe she'll play online with me soon. Hope everyone is having a great summer.
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Nevermind, the format just didn't like my work computer's resolution, I guess.
Also, here's a fun link for the day:
http://www.projectzeldaonline.com/
LINK! GET IT?

Vs. Anonymity

So, the audition went pretty well last weekend... And my audition did make it to air. For about a 30th of a second. hee hee. I'm glad I went out and tried, though... I do have fun doing it. There were about 350 guys trying out when I left, and there was still an hour to go! Most were nerds, some appeared to be out of work actors who were much better looking than me. I read about 90 seconds of copy... One of the regular cheesy news stories from the show, and I think I did pretty well. I started getting nervous and reading a little fast, but I caught myself, and improvised out of it a little. I haven't heard anything, but they are still holding open casting calls in 2 other cities, so who knows. I will be applying again this year for the director's guild assistant director training program, so I've still got that goin for me! :) I'm really getting more ambitious lately, because I really want to be able to take care of myself a little better so I can have a family one of these days. That brings up some drama I'm not ready to talk about. Even on my blog that hardly anyone knows about. God, I'm lame.